RIP January 29, 2008

only knew about it today, eventhough it was from last friday. RIP Ms. Choy, my English Teacher in f5 (and part of f4). i will definitely remember the times you keep saying “i donch know” and how you made sure you looked for each and everyone of us who hid in the other classrooms and the library and all sorts of hiding places everytime english period starts. i still have your english workbook.. somewhere.

*ms choy passed away on friday 24 january 2008 after just 5 days’ struggle with pneumonia

i learned a new phrase today episode 1 January 25, 2008

had to ask a fellow officemate what “makan kot woya” means.

he said:
“kalu mu gi spital, mu napok pesakik2 sumer sangkut IV, tu asal-usul makan kot woya ler (makan ikut wayar)”

in other words,  when someone is soo poor/sengkek that his health deteriorates and the only food he’s eating are the ones that go in via the IV… i think. please correct me if i’m wrong. aku tau apis misti nak komen nyer

relax.. take it eeeeeeeeeasy January 22, 2008

i’m in my lazy mode.

for someone who’s soo used to run around the office, meeting clients, and generally acting hyperactive here and there..it’s a brand new thing for me since this new job is a real sedentary one. and to think they pay me more than hspj just to sit.. LOL.  the good thing about this is i no longer have to answer to a lot of people. no more answering to and negotiating with clients when their requirements are not met due to silly service provided by operations. no more watching the many fingers pointing here and there when i ask the staff about poor service. here.. i just sit in front of the computer and do admin work! well it’s basically admin work for the marketing department, but then since we have 6 boys to go on the field, leaves yours truly in the comforts of the office

i’m still trying to get used to a few things, such as:

1. having to pay for parking (most probably ask anep to send and pick me up starting next month…hehehe)
2. having to pay for lunch (ni benci betul!!)
3. leaving office on the dot (never got to do that when i was in hspj)

on zana news, she had her check-up last week and everything’s ok. blood test showed she had the influenza virus, which could have been deadly if we waited a little longer before bringing her to the hospital. she’s eating so much now she’s been nicknamed ‘bulat’ by everyone at home.. hehe.

so since it’s a public holiday tomorrow.. i hope everyone enjoys their mid-week break.. and happy thaipusam!

i guess.. January 14, 2008

everything’s back to normal lah. trust issue? both parties have compromised. will it ever happen again? i sincerely hope not.. otherwise somebody’s gonna end up with a black eye.. and black other-body-parts

anyway, happy 3rd anniversary to myself & anep! due to the usual monday rush, we only managed to wish each other during this morning’s motorbike ride to the office (yeah, we’re that pathetic).. but hopefully we’ll get some time to go out for dinner tonight.. just the two of us. for once, zana can be the dutiful daughter who stays home.. hahahahahahah!

of a bloody hell day January 11, 2008

this is an article i got from this link. it kinda reflects my mood right now.. sigh.

  When All Trust Is Gone, And Gone For Good – by Glen

I’m not going to blow anybody’s mind when I say this, but trust has got to be one of the most basic foundations of a decent relationship. Trust can elevate a good time to a rock solid bond. Let’s face it, no one wants to devote a huge amount of time and energy for someone who can’t be entrusted to do the simplest things. Not that baseless faith is anything to be happy about either. When all trust is gone, we have to ask ourselves, “Is this worthwhile? Can this guy/gal be there for me when the going gets tough?”

Trust isn’t necessarily all about love. You can love someone whom you wouldn’t trust–and that’s part of the problem. I can recall a few relationships in the past that have led absolutely nowhere, due mostly to the fact that those people couldn’t be trusted to fill an ice cube tray, much less a relationship. I’ve always found that believing in someones capabilities (and actually seeing some concrete results) has to go hand in hand with whatever emotional longing I might have for that person. Without some kind of faith, it’s pretty hard to invest any kind of emotion or even open yourself up to another human being.

On other hand you don’t want to be someone who doesn’t trust ANYBODY. I’ve known friends who experienced some horrifying relationship problems (usually one in which they got ditched for somebody else) and now view everybody with suspicion. Catching a cheating spouse or lover is horrible, but just because it occurred once does not mean that everyone is losing sleep trying to think of ways to have an affair. Faith in small doses can be a good thing, just not leaps of faith that make you believe that your boyfriend really DOES have to leave you to explore Botswana. You still need to trust enough to believe that people can be pretty decent if you give them a chance.

When all trust is gone, and gone for good, you can wind up with a lot of anger in a relationship, and most people don’t enjoy being in simmering, seething, resentful partnerships. When people open up to the right person, it can be beautiful to watch. It isn’t so pretty to watch two people shut down and cut each other out of the picture. Do you remember American Beauty? Annette Benning and Kevin Spacey may have looked good together, but the two characters couldn’t see a single action that wasn’t laced with suspicion and guilt. We have to be careful not to fall into the no-trust trap that so many Hollywood suburban tragedies revolve around. Here’s hoping you’re able to find the right balance of trust and suspicion before all trust is gone… and gone for good.

Everything Update January 8, 2008

what a year! i hope it’s not too late to wish everybody a happy 2008. got your new year resolutions underway? i can’t remember if i made any resolutions for 2007, much less stick to it or anything. so here’s hoping that in 2008:

1. my ‘hobby’ generates more revenue.. hehe (anybody wants to renew their car insurance?)

2. i’m okay with my new job

3. zana has a healthier 2008

speaking of a healthier 2008, most of my friends would have known about zana’s hospitalization. ya lor, she had been down with fever, on and off, since raya haji. then on christmas morning (specifically 3am) her fever spiked so high, she was burning. cepat2 hantar to the hospital.. even had her chest x-rayed, then the doctor admitted her at 4.30am for pneumonia.

the ward stay was not that bad eventhough it was a common ward. almost all the cases there were respiratory; asthma, pneumonia.. might be because of the change in weather. yang paling kesian when the nurse came to take zana’s phlegm sample. can u imagine a toddler screaming at 5 in the morning when the nurse slid a tube down the throat? i was in tears trying to calm her down that time. and the 2nd time round after a couple of days was not any easier. this time it was not just a sample. it was full-blown sucking-out phlegm from the nose, and the throat. i think it went on for at least 3 minutes. but thankfully, zana’s fever went down after that. who would have thought that phlegm can contribute to a fever?

we were back home 3 days after christmas. now zana’s back to her old self, melompat2 sana sini (as evidenced at arina’s birthday party recently).

as with my new job, so far so good.. will tell more soon.. once i’ve settled in.

cheers!